Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Things change, evolve, directions shift ...

Well, eventually I needed to make a decision to leave the FM group but on GOOD terms. Well, haven't really told anyone why - no one has asked, but really it's moot anyway, they run stuff like they want to run it, and no one else seems to have issues, and I just can see the writing on the wall (for me).

Sad too, because I really liked it, but ... well when a group evolves and changes and is no longer the group that you joined, you either decide to stick it out and adapt, or seek to change it back, or realize that particular ship has sailed and just go off in your own direction, no harm, no foul.

I opted to do the latter. Still like the people, still hang out with them here and there (and Ray has decided to stay since it's not bugging him as much as it will me - again, I can just see where stuff is headed, nothing happened yet but I can just tell how stuff is gonna go and I'd rather be proactive at avoiding drama when I can as it relates to me anyways! LOL), but just could see that the direction they were going to start going in and were evolving into, just wasn't going to mesh well with me or the person I am and I refuse to enforce MY opinions or feelings when my opinion was not asked for or trying to make any group conform to MY preferences, cuz thats just not how I roll.

Much better to just gracefully step down in a nice, peaceful, pleasant matter and just go my own way, in my opinion. Basically just opted to "take one for the team" ... one last time.

But still hoping to learn spiritual stuff from D. - which was my main motivation for joining anyway!

So yup, now just a member of SGHG which is cool, only they too are in a period of slow activity.

Might need to seriously talk to Ray about starting up something between us like we had talked about in the late 90's, lol.

Should be getting a K2 soon, which will be great, been wanting one of those for a while!